People

Life sucks sometimes.

But what can you do about it? The only thing you can do is slug on through, roll with the punches so to speak, and hope it gets better...

And sometimes it does... Sometimes it doesn't...

Sometimes it just gets worse and then all you can do is cling to the edge with the tips of torn and bloody finger tips, ravaged by the mad scramble to cling to what you love, what you believe in and that sometime soon it will get better.

But between those times where it starts getting bad and then gets better, how does one cling to the little sanity left in this world?

How can they work through it when they are hit with road train after road train of heartache, mental anguish, stress within both their family life, love life, work life and educational life?

Is it really fair to allow someone to be kicked again and again and not notice that you're doing it?

Humanity allows its self to be blinded to other fellow human beings emotions, excepting a few rare cases, only focusing on their pain and solitude, their plan's. This can be understood everyone wants a life to lead- to find a place in this world that they can shine in.

But what of those who are curled into themselves? Mere shadows, there and then gone in the blink of the universal eye.

People need to notice these people more, need to lend a hand and help them stand.

People need to talk to each other, and notice the small things that give the struggle away.

What ever am i going to do?

At times like these it is when I truly go mad.

It is the end of the year, last week of term three and then two weeks of holidays before the last stretch til the end of the year. And I can't concentrate, can't even use my usb on the computer i'm on at school. crazy.
And so i creat random journals and blogs and discover new things to do on the computer.
My life is such fun don't yah think?
I want to write, but i'm not sure what, should i start a new story? probaly a bad idea seeing as i have well over a dozen stories to work on now, should i write a poem? maybe or even a song?
my head is a roiling tumble of nervous ecitement, i ahve my final drive tomorrow and will hopefully soon be a legal driver. i just hope i manage to pass.
I want to go on that Au Pair program but i'm waiting until after i've finished uni... hard as that is.

So the world continues to go aorund and i am left stuck in a time and place i can't escape from.

Whatever am i going to do?

Next Au Pair?

Well, we are well into my (hopefully) final year of high school.

English, History, Psychology, Biology and Chem... the craziness of it all.. i bloody can't wait til this year is over...

but enough about school people. I may be becoming an Au Pair!

What is an Au Pair you ask? An Au PAir is some one who is involved in teh AU Pair cultural exchange program who send thousands of 18-26 year old people to a different country to live for a year and learn about, and teach the family they are staying with, another culture!
Sounds fun? You alos take care of the families kids... my mum may be takin' me to extremes:P

but what ever gets me in is worth it.

I want to go.

I shall keep you posted on my activities, for now

cheers and keep safe!

Bella-C

Come and see me

Right, i'm starting over, ladies and gents?

come and meet me!

I will be posting stories or poems, a diary of confessions (maybe) everynow and then and will be willing to talk to anyone who is wanting a friendly ear.

cheers

Bella-C